i have kept a journal since i was in 3rd grade. sadly, the oldest one i still have is only from 10 years ago. there have been entries every day, week or month. then there have been entries where i only wrote every 6 months or so. i also never finished a journal before i bought a new one. i couldn't help myself! i finally got over that and completed my first moleskine notebook and more recently, am about to finish my second. i still procrastinate when it comes to updating the events of my life, journal or blog.
i guess this is just the way i am. some things i try to change, i have great intentions, and it never happens! some things are ok to stay the same. some things are not.
thank God, my outlook on my life has made a HUGE turn-around. the situations are still the same, the circumstances have not changed, but i feel as though a weight has been lifted and i am no longer in the "depths of despair" to quote anne of green gables... i was really sinking deep and was fearful that depression was going to once again take over. it was REALLY bad. friends came alongside me, prayers were lifted up on my behalf and i know for a FACT that those prayers are what did it. i have been depressed before and this felt more scary. possibly "oppression". but the dust has cleared and it is a gorgeous, crisp, fall day! (figuratively speaking, that is... it's past 9:30pm here) lol, but anyway, i am now looking forward to things again.
specifically, our launch.
one week and two days away. i am so excited, and so nervous. i truly have no idea what to expect, even considering what i saw over the summer at our preview services. i am so happy to be a part of this and i can't wait to just enjoy it. which brings me to another reason i am so nervous. child care! we want to have an outstanding child care program and eventually a 'school age' kids program. we fully believe that if a child is not happy 'growing up in the church', then the minute they turn 18 they are going to leave said church. we want them to have an amazing experience on sunday mornings by having fun and learning about Jesus! (what are the two questions every parent asks? 1) did you have fun? 2) what did you learn?) we want the answer to be an exclamation.
we need help! i am going to post a need and see how the response is. if you can help in any way (in this area) please let me know. if you know anyone who would be interested, please let me know! i would love to have 3 main people in charge of child care the way we have it set up for the time being. (3 people equals one week in 'nursery' and two weeks off to be in service) i also would love those 3 people to have a helper or two of some sort because a lot of kids needs a lot of attention!
i am also still trying to figure out this whole "pastor's wife" title and i have decided that i am going to redefine it just by being who i am. there are a lot of stereotypes out there and i am not any of them! so inserting myself into every hole that needs to be filled church-wise, is not going to happen. i don't mean to sound rude. i just cannot spread myself that thin, nor do i believe i should be. i feel that if i place myself somewhere, just because there needs to 'be someone' there is leaving the RIGHT person for the job out of the loop. so i will post the needs as they arise (heh heh) and hopefully God will direct the right person to the right job :O)
He has done such amazing things on this journey so far, i would not be surprised at what comes next. but He is also the God of the universe, so i have a feeling i am still gonna be astounded.
and i can't wait!