The Lord will fulfill His purpose for me; Your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever.
well, i have decided to write out my "before" story. because we all know that means there MUST come an "after" story... and i am praying that i can be patient with the way my life is going right now, until i can tell everyone that this part of it is OVER!
i have so much to vent.
i have so much to be grateful for.
i really do not want to come across as complaining or 'woe is me, so pity me'... that is not my intention at all, but i feel i have to explain what is going on in my family's life so people can understand where we are coming from. this summer has been such a roller coaster! we have been away a lot, plus dan and i have found part time jobs, so we don't have as much free time when we ARE home. i am so grateful that we have work, but we are still not making ends meet. we have had friends and family come alongside us and help us out with money but we have been late with payments and that has not happened in a long time! i hate that feeling.
i know, i know, at least they are getting paid at all, but that means when we do start making more money, we have to pay these people back first, and that is all the more longer till we are on our feet again!
what does any of this have to do with you? well, nothing, but you are reading this so i feel i have to justify it with a reason. how about: if you feel i have ignored you lately, i haven't intentionally! i am just too busy or broke to do anything. or too tired from being too busy and i am laying on my couch zoning to netflix (thanks bill), haha.
but anyway, i said that i have so much to vent and that i had snapped, but money is not the whole issue.
we are starting a church. my husband AND i and a few close friends and family. i say "AND" i because i feel like some people think i am tagging along behind dan just for the ride. this is a calling i have felt from God as well, and i am so excited about it. which makes it harder when people in my life don't seem to be as enthused. i get that there are different things for different people, but if you love me, and i have invited you to something that is an on-going thing... you should check it out at least once.
i need your support, people.
i need to know that there are people who are excited about what we are doing for God.
i need validation.
maybe i don't 'need' these things, but it would be really nice to have them. especially if you consider me someone who is close to you. because if you haven't done these things, i am definitely not feeling the 'close'ness.
and if you think, gosh, she might be talking about me... chances are, i probably am not.
but maybe i am. so think about it, wontcha?